I got distracted in my life. I forgot all about this blog, all about my lofty goals of exposing American consumerism's faults. I lost track of time. My relationship was crumbling. And then he walked out. Even though it felt like my lungs were collapsing, I had known it was coming. He had told me from the early days of our relationship that he was a short-term kind of person. But his warmth, his laughter, his kindness and affection....his attractiveness to me...it all seemed worth the gamble. But that's exactly what it was.
I know there aren't any guarantees with relationships. Believe me, I've been through it all. Girlfriends, boyfriends, cheaters, bi-sexuals, crossdressers...I mean, I'm willing to look past all the neurosis because I understand we all have them. But this non-committal thing just makes me furious.
So, my boyfriend left his stuff here, and his cats, but told me he was leaving with no idea if and when he would return. And really, for most of my day I'm ok. A bit deflated in a very impatient way.
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